“What we see depends mainly on what we look for.” — John Lubbock
And then, write here, post number two today. Making this a sort of cheat day.
The word “write” is a pun. Not a typo. A pun. A bad pun. It should be removed, and yet it will not bee. 🐝
It’s easier to do mental gymnastics today than bother feeling bad about missing a personal goal, for a personal blog, when I’ve produced so much content this month.
There’s much less illegitimate negative emotions after I do the mental gymnastics to support how multiple posts in a single cay can count as the 3 posts per month.
Or, maybe, I’ve already written about this. Which, I’m pretty sure I have.
Or, maybe I haven’t. I have no clue. I have not gone back and read any of my posts yet-ish.
Maybe, I’ll eventually take all my posts and stick them in an LLM and ask for a personality assessment.
That would be pretty awesome. Getting my essence picked apart by a nonlinear system of machine learning algorithms. Yup. Awesome. Ish. Maybe.
This maybe is actually a hard, “Yes.” It is so easy for me to just concatenate the content of all these blog posts, then cram them into a chatbot prompt. It’s really more of a matter of when, than anything.
It will be interesting to go back in time, in the future, and read all this stuff. Hopefully, I’ll cringe. Or get cancelled. I’ve done, and said, a lot of stupid shit in my life. I can absolutely imagine that some person, at some time, in some future, will find something I’ve written, or said, wantonly inappropriate. Obscenely uncouth.
Or…
Worst of all…
Obnoxiously cringey.
Hi there, future Tim! Smile, you’re on text. 😀 Nice to assault your memory again. By the time you read me, you must have met at least one of your goals. One of the more ambitious ones . That’d be pretty cool, dude. Also, make sure you beat your current 788 day streak of walking at least ten-thousand steps a day. 👟
That quote above though. It sure does seem pretty prescient to come across.
“What we see depends mainly on what we look for.”
That’s what I’m doing right now; and, almost all of the things I’m seeing — the correlations that are coming together — are enriching the models on my mind.
I still have this feeling that what I’m doing has already been done. Or that there’s no point trying. No point in making an effort. No point in investing so much energy.
I also have this feeling that what I’m doing hasn’t been done.
I dunno.
Maybe they call that a fear of failure. I think it’s more of a fear of all the time invested, and cognitive effort applied, to something I think has the potential to become something special.
Putting my most precious possession — time — which you can’t have without Tim — into something that’s for nothing.
Oof.
I am absolutely okay “failing,” because there is no failure.
Only feedback.
iT’S aLL AbOUt ThE FRieNdS wE MaDE ALoNg ThE waY.
Which to some extent, is true. But, I do have a prediction.
I predict that if I do manage to form the team, and find the resources required — to realize my vision for provide.io — then there may be more traffic to this blog than I may have expected. Hopefully, to appease my inner sense of vanity, I am accurate.
If not, I suppose I’m alright with that too.
It’ll fuel that “Obnoxious Cringey” vibe to my current writing that’ll be absolutely fantastic to make fun of. Hopefully this’ll be a journal about nothing, and then the documentation of a trajectory of success.
Hopefully…
Because, stagnation, or worse, seem like they’d be unfortunate processes to experience.
Fuck.
That.
Noise.
I suppose at least I’ll feel alright that I made an effort to do it. To make an effort to engineer a complex system that supports optimal integration.
That’ll take some conditioning though.
If things are going to be optimally integrated within the complex systems that we’re designing, then we must ensure all the conditions are crafted to support an enduring culture.
I believe that it is the culture that will make or break this organization I’m working to form.
And culture is conditioned.
Psychoeducation ftw.
Integrating behavioral science best practices through continuous psychoeducation, and individual/group/organizational assessments, seems like a fantastic form of conditioning, rather than any of the other cults that probably exist by now.
I’m observing that it is more challenging for people to work well with other people because they don’t know who they are. And, they, in this case, is multidimensional.
Which is where I predict that the introduction of models such as Attachment Theory, and Conflict Resolution Systems, will be a game changer.
Possibly catalyzing existential crises for some. But, that’s ultimately for the greater good. Themselves, and the people they interact with. Work with. Form relationships with.
Sixty-nine percent of conflict is perpetual. And, ninety-six percent of discussions about conflict end on the same level that they began.
Positive begets positivity, and negative, negativity.
Make sure you remember this, Tim.
When you’re feeling the feelings and in the middle of an emotional feedback loop.
It can be really fucking challenging to remain positive.