“Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways.” — Sigmund Freud

Ugh. I’m actually writing this on the 30th, and I really don’t want to. But I’m posting this 2 days behind — on September 28th.

Including this post, I’ll have written about 2,335 words in a day. I really didn’t expect to be writing this much today, nor did I really want to. But I did. So, I guess that’s something.

I’ll have made my 3 posts a month goal again.

Which is better than May and October of 2023, I suppose.

That’s still making me feel annoyed as fuck. The posts were basically done. I just needed a little editing, a little adding, a little more editing, and I’d have been done. Oh well. You win some, you forget some.

I’m going to go ahead and blame the ADHD on that one, since it’s pretty much an ADHD thing to do. Just like writing all 3 of the posts I wanna write on the last day of the month again.

Fucking brain fog.

Which I just learned can also be referred to as the clouding of consciousness. I think I like that term much better than brain fog.

My favorite part of that Wikipedia article is that one of the see also links is for cannabis use disorder. lmao.

I think one of the funniest things about this whole cloud of consciousness thing is that when you search around for “solutions that may help you” it all basically boils down to:

  1. Get quality sleep.
  2. Be active throughout the day.
  3. Eat a healthy, balanced diet.
  4. Incorporate mindfulness into your routine and manage your stress.
  5. Avoiding alcohol, smoking, and too much coffee.
  6. Finding enjoyable activities and being social.

The reason this is funny to me? Because that’s pretty much the advice that everyone gives everyone when it comes to living a healthier life.

I have been finding it much more challenging to make myself go out and doing stuff. And, I’ve still been finding it very challenging to continuing working on provide.io, which is still very important to me.

Fuck me it’s been hard to not just sit around and watch content. TV and movies. Even video games haven’t been all that appealing to play.

For now.

I’ll figure it out. I’ll get through this.